Happy Christmas

"relax!"

"relax? how can I relax? plastic bag! I packed my panties in a plastic bag!"

"I love this. unpredicted and crazy. no plans, just us, leaving for a couple of days."

"I hate this. I mean, no list!"

"yeah, I know. but tomorrow morning you'll wake up and see the ocean and you'll be happy we did it."

and I was.

La Baule, on the Atlantic coast. a 5-hour drive. room service, restaurants and a life stripped of anything resembling domestic duties. the boys twinkling with delight. the pool, the big bed, so many new buttons to push.

the incessant phone calls from the office. my husband deserting home. my frustration. all evaporating like sea foam.

Sean running triumphantly on the sand leaving a trail of dazzling exhilaration behind him, so bright it blinds me. his soul flinging to the highest. flashes of perfect innocence flickering across his face. it is so beautiful it plucks out my momster heart. and gives meaning to my life. to everything.

Happy Christmas,

xoxo